I feel as if things have been strained lately.

Maybe its me, maybe its you, maybe its both.

Maybe we are more alike than I realize.

Maybe we are not as much alike as I had thought.

Maybe what's wrong is so simple, yet maybe there is nothing wrong at all.

I get a feeling sometimes when we talk. A feeling form you that it's hard on you to wait to be able to find the time to be together. But I feel sometimes in the things you say that maybe it really is hurting you, that you have the same strong desire, longing and need to

see me as much as I so need to see you.

Then maybe again it's my mind that is playing tricks on me. Maybe that's not what you're feeling at all. Maybe in fact you don't want to ever see me again. The heart can do many things when its alone, when it hurts, when it has a need that is not being fulfilled.

I sit and listen to music and do so much

writing, which seems to help fill the

huge void in my life of being without

you, being so far away from you.

Sometimes the pain is so great I can

barely breathe. Have you ever just sat

someplace, lay in bed and so

desperately want to reach out,

sometimes thinking if you close your

eyes and reach out that you can feel

that person, that someone you want so

badly you would be willing to give up

almost anything at that very moment

just to feel there touch, just to hear

there voice, just to look into there eyes

and say " I love you "?

Have you ever wanted to crawl through

the phone just for that brief moment in

time to touch another's hand, to place

your hand softly on there face and gaze

into there eyes?

This is where I find me so often. There

are times I can do nothing but sit and

cry from pain inside. Agony of the

loneliness I feel so deep inside. When

you are not here I am incomplete, When

you are here I am so very complete, so

very whole again. Yet I know the time

will come you will be gone again. Have

you ever wanted to pick yourself up and

tell your soul to stop all this, it hurts to

deeply? Have you ever wanted to tell

your heart how wrong it is to love this

way?

Have you ever felt a hand touching you

gently and hear a whisper "don't worry

baby I'm here"? " Have you ever felt a

sudden chill and knew at that moment

someone so far away was whispering "

Please feel me, Please feel I need you"?

For so long now all I have ever wanted

was to love you so very completely, give

you even a small portion of the sheer

happiness you have brought into my

life. To be able to show to you everyday

what you mean to me, how important

you are, how you so deserve much

more than I can ever give to you. Yet at

times I feel I give too much, I show too

much, I love too much. I am left

powerless and so filled with fear.

I believe in you, I believe in me, I believe

in us. I believe in what we share, what

we have between us. I believe in the 2

hearts that are here, so far apart yet so

close to each every day.

You are in every dream in my soul, you

are in every thought my mind has, and

you are in every piece of my heart. You

are in everything there is about the

"me" That I am or ever will be. I so want

to be the same for you. I don't know that

I can ever be that for you or with you

But I will do everything you need me to

do just to achieve that For you !

I will give to you all that I have to give, I

will ask nothing in return. I will forever

give to you all that you will allow me to

give in whatever way it is that you have

a need. I will do this through an

unconditional love from within my soul.